I don't know why they call it heartbreak

Friday, May 31, 2013
Sometimes you just need someone.
Someone to make you smile when you’re sad
Someone to tell you you’re beautiful
Someone to look forward to seeing you every day
Someone to call you every night
Someone to say I love you and mean it
Sometimes you just need someone . .

You met me. You introduced yourself to me. You were a friend to me. You grew fond of me. You grew to appreciate me. You liked me. You asked me. I answered. You held me. You touched me. You needed me. You wanted me. You loved me. You grew tired of me. You felt trapped by me. You lied to me. You cheated on me. You hurt me. You left me... 

I know I'am upset about him.
Its okay, be upset, scream and cry. 
But I looking back on this stupid boy who broke my heart in the future, I’ll laugh at him, Laugh because he thought he was doing the right thing at the right time. Turns out he wasn’t because he lost something amazing! And I’ll thank him. Thank him for make me stronger...

I don't know why they call it heartbreak. 
It feels like every other part of my body is broken too

I don't know why they call it heartbreak.
It's the worst feeling in the entire world, and the hardest to describe. It feels as if you can't breathe, you can't stop crying, and sometimes your chest even burns

I don't know why they call it heartbreak
When you're really in love with someone and then you break up and it hurts so bad
It keeps you up at night because everytime you close your eyes, you think of them. you can't eat. you can't sleep. You think of him and it hurts so much, you wanna cry. 

I don't know why they call it heartbreak
Actually feel such an intense pain they don't even want to live anymore. You cannot think about anything except for the awful pain you feel and how much you hate the person for leaving you, and at the same time desperately want them back

I never knew why they called it "heartbreak" until I experienced it

LastMay.GoodbyeMay.PleasebeniceJune

What if I never find love ?

Friday, May 24, 2013
Probably one the worst things you could have done to me, was moving on that quick
How is that you can go from loving me one day and not loving me the next
and to not evenbeing four weeks since we broke up and you make that 'woman' be your new girlfriend.
How you could just move on without considering my feeling knowing tht i still love u
You saidwe would be "friend"  no matter what, but you lied.
The moment you decide to be a coward was believe and hope that we could have fixed wht we had and be together again. But that's not gonna happen
Thanks for being my friend and breaking my heart

So depressed
So despides
The memories 
Because the tears come easily,
And once again I break my promise 
To my self for this day
Its a constant battle
A war between 
Remembering and forgetting ......

So please 
Dont expect to much
Dont expect to always be good and kind and loving.

What if I neverfind love ?
What if I am just too wierd for enyone ?
What if ....

Dreams are just that, a dream

Tuesday, May 7, 2013

I love you, you don't love me, but that's fine, I'll be okay.
I miss you, you don't miss me, but that's fine, I'll be okay.
My heads filled with you, your heads filled with someone else, but that's fine, I'll be okay.
I will be okay . I will be okay . . .

Last night . . .
I had a dream of my ex  who I haven’t spoke or seen in about 1 years
I had a relationship with him for about a year and that ended about 1 years ago.
I really loved him and we were each other's first loves.
Since then, we haven't remained in contact at all.
I've been having dreams about him and his girlfriend getting married.
I'm not sure why .
It really freaked me out! It really made me so sad deeply
I was crying in  my dream and I woke up I was crying
I woke up in tears, unsure of what this dream meant.

When I fell for you all my expectations of love shattered.
I thought you loved me, you said you loved me, but now your leaving me for someone else.
This is not the fairytale story I wanted.
I loved you, I still do, but now I'm brokenhearted, I let you in, I gave you my all, but you just played with my heart, you lied.
You said we'd always be together, you promised we'd always be together. . .

Dreams are just that, a dream baby