friends

I love to be gorgeous

I love my new hair

I love my new weight

ohhhh . stressing made me feeling so bad

And . . .

efek dari semua masalah terberat ini adalah 

potong rambut . Pengen sesuatu yang baru, yang menandakan kalau aku memang harus benar-benar move on! new hair, membuatku lebih percaya diri 

Beli baju, tas dan sepaatu yang baru. Karena memakai barang yg lama jadi banyak banget keinget dengan seseorang . Dan itu membuat perasaan jadi blue again :(

makanya beli baju baru banyak, jadi sering belanja. Karena mau terlihat baru dan lebih fresh !

Dan efeknya . Aku selalu ingin tampil se prima mungkin. 

Secara sekarang single .hehhee

jadi mau cari someone new. yang bisa bikin gw happy lagi . hehhee 

sama suka narsis deh sekarang .hahah mau pamer rambut ku yang lucu ini

:D

dan gara-gara stress ini , dampak yang paling terlihat berubah dari aku

jeng jeng jeng jeng . . ..  

Badan kuuuuuu . . . 

selama sebulan . Menderita banget. makan cuma sekali dua kali sehari . Kerjaannya bengong, bingung ga tau mau ngapain , sepi dan setiap malem nangisin sesuatu . Ada aja yang bikin nangis 

besok paginya lemes , mata bengkak . Ga mau ngapa-ngapain . makan apalagi

bener-bener tersiksa psikis dan fisik deh

Efeknya . Sebulan mengalami depresi . hmmmm berat badanku turun 4 kg

wow 

hebat kan ?

hahhahahaaaaaa . Jadi tips yang mau diet cepat adalah sakit hati !

Feeling so gorgeous !

23May2012

Never again. I don’t want to see you anymore. I really don’t. You unintentionally screwed up my life again. I was extremely happy until I saw you again. I regret it. I should have went on with my life instead of seeing you again. I can’t get over it. Ever since I saw you, I’ve become more and more depressed. I’m more irritable and I just feel so lost and insecure. Why did I make that decision to see you. Why am I so stupid. I knew this would happen. I was finally happy just because I made the decision to, but now, I don’t even have the strength to try to be happy. I found the path that led straight to happiness, but now it’s lost, gone. You ruined it. You led me astray. You blinded me. I can’t seem to do anything right anymore. I hate you so much. I could have gone on with life only wishing to see you again. I hate myself for making that choice. If only I never met you or fell for you. Now all I can do is wait to see you again, being happy for that time, and then becoming like this. I’m tired of this routine. See you, become depressed, be happy, you suddenly pop up again, happy, you leave, depressed, happy after a while, and then the process just starts again. I think, maybe I should just not see you ever again, no matter how much I wish to see you. I can’t tell if it’s worth going through these stages all over again. I don’t know anymore. 




I don’t even understand anything anymore. Everything’s just everywhere. Friends are leaving. I’m doing the most regretful things I’d ever do. Family’s just becoming a big mess. And everything’s starting to disappear. Everything’s just gone now. 　






You come in and out of my life like it’s some kind of joke. It’s not funny anymore, it’s turned painful and I honestly can’t do it anymore. I hold onto everything about you and everyday that passes my love for you grows. We’ve known each other for years and every time you walk away, I’m left wondering if it’s the last time I’ll ever see/talk to you. It’s too stressful and I can’t handle it. Make a choice because regardless if you know it or not, you were my first love.Nothing will change that. Either you’re in my life or you’re not

this is a story of a girl

take my breath away . .

I dream you last night. I dont remember any of it, but i know you were there

As for now, I’m gonna hear the saddest songs and sit alone and wonder… how you’re making out . . 

I act like I don't care but deep inside, it so hurts

basicly, I wish that you loved me

actually

I wish that you without me your heart would break

I wish that without me you'd be spending a rest of your nights awake

I wish that without me you couldn't eat

How poor me  :(

too bad to expect such like that

I wish I can really move on

and find someone really touch my heart

coz my past just love my face and my appearance 

He never really love me, care with me.

I'm strong !

Never

never 

never

give up . yeaaaah :D

See you, become depressed, 

be happy, 

you suddenly pop up again, happy, 

you leave, depressed, happy after a while, and then the process just starts again. 

I think, maybe I should just not see you ever again, no matter how much I wish to see you. 

I can’t tell if it’s worth going through these stages all over again. 

I don’t want know anymore

Tuesday, May 22 '12

welcome

honestly
it's hard to fall in love again, if I can't free myself from the past :(
Learn to let to go. . .
It's not easy but it's not impossible

think i found someone
But that's the scary part. I really don't want to get hurt like every other time

I'M DONE STRESSING OVER
SMILE, TOMORROW WILL BE BETTER

Welcome new life :D

losers and winners

I love to shop after a bad relationship. I don't know. I buy a new outfit and it makes me feel better. It just does. Sometimes I see a really great outfit, but my heart is never as good as this outfit




What`s a soul mate? well it`s like a best friend, but more..
it`s the one person in the world who knows you better
than anyone else
it`s someone who makes you a better person, but actually they don`t, you do it yourself, because they inspire you. a soul mate is someone you carry with you forever. it`s the one person who knew you & accepted you and believe in you before anyone else did, or when no one else would. and no matter what happens, you will always love them. nothing can ever change that . .




Losers make promises they often break. Winners make commitments they always keep .


And I'm a winner

13 May 2012

capture capture and capture

Take a picture . . 

I love capture my new hair 

Saturday, May 12 2012