Never again. I don’t want to see you anymore. I really don’t. You unintentionally screwed up my life again. I was extremely happy until I saw you again. I regret it. I should have went on with my life instead of seeing you again. I can’t get over it. Ever since I saw you, I’ve become more and more depressed. I’m more irritable and I just feel so lost and insecure. Why did I make that decision to see you. Why am I so stupid. I knew this would happen. I was finally happy just because I made the decision to, but now, I don’t even have the strength to try to be happy. I found the path that led straight to happiness, but now it’s lost, gone. You ruined it. You led me astray. You blinded me. I can’t seem to do anything right anymore. I hate you so much. I could have gone on with life only wishing to see you again. I hate myself for making that choice. If only I never met you or fell for you. Now all I can do is wait to see you again, being happy for that time, and then becoming like this. I’m tired of this routine. See you, become depressed, be happy, you suddenly pop up again, happy, you leave, depressed, happy after a while, and then the process just starts again. I think, maybe I should just not see you ever again, no matter how much I wish to see you. I can’t tell if it’s worth going through these stages all over again. I don’t know anymore. 




I don’t even understand anything anymore. Everything’s just everywhere. Friends are leaving. I’m doing the most regretful things I’d ever do. Family’s just becoming a big mess. And everything’s starting to disappear. Everything’s just gone now. 　






You come in and out of my life like it’s some kind of joke. It’s not funny anymore, it’s turned painful and I honestly can’t do it anymore. I hold onto everything about you and everyday that passes my love for you grows. We’ve known each other for years and every time you walk away, I’m left wondering if it’s the last time I’ll ever see/talk to you. It’s too stressful and I can’t handle it. Make a choice because regardless if you know it or not, you were my first love.Nothing will change that. Either you’re in my life or you’re not