what should I do ?

I watch the night
turn light blue . .
and
I dont know why, I still remember him . I miss him so badly , so much
It's so so sooooooo hard to forget someone who gave you so much to remember!
I swear . tonight is so bad for me . . . Worst feeling :(
ohhh God . what should I do ?
I still miss him, and I really hate that . I hate myself for still waiting for you .
I wish thatI had never met you . please .
then there would be no need to impress you. No need to want you
No need for crying over you. No need for pain and tears
No need, for everything you've done to make me feel like absolutely nothing .
please please . go away from me .
ohhh . Why it's so difficult God ?
I had someone now.
I think, Love as the most unpredictable, confusing, frusted,tragic, and increadible things
We're all so drawn to it over and over again no metter how many times it hurts us . . . .
Someday i'll forget the hurt.  the reason we cried and who caused this pain

I'm never not afraid to try again, I'm just afraid of getting hurt for same reason :(

Tak akan pernah ada pelangi, jika hujan tidak menghampiri
Akan selalu ada bahagia, setelah kita meneteskan airmata . .


And for my new bestiest now
Achmad Chaeroni , Maybe God has a bigger plan for me than I had
Like you were sent to me when I'm so sick
To help me through all this
You are my . . . . ehhmm someone special for me
Ohhh . Today is special .
Because It's a our first monthversarry
longlast baby . . .

and Life is too short to wakeup in the morning withs regret
Sooooo . . .
Love the people who
can win and treat me
and forget about the ones who don't
And believe that everything happens for a reason
Nobody said that it would be can easy
so . Smile, laugh, forgive, believe and Love all around me




Saturday Night -070712