first october

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membuka hatiku untukmu
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You never know what you have until you lose it, and once you lose it, you can never get it back.

I cried (again and again) today,  not because I miss you or even wanted you... but because I realized I'm gonna be all right without you.

You always say you hate to see me hurt, and you hate to see me cry. So all those times that you hurt me, did you close your eyes?

Why did I break up with him? Well ,it's like, once I sat down and looked at the situation, all the pieces lying on the floor, it just wasn't a puzzle anymore. None of the pieces fit together. And even if I tried really hard, the pieces, well they were two different puzzles. That's why I did it, he needs to understand that.

Sometimes it's better to be alone. No one can hurt you that way.

Of course, I'm going to get my heart broken. And it isn't just going to happen once, but a lot. That's just part of growing up, and it makes me stronger.
And I'll be a stronger person because of it. Then one day someone will come along, and it'll all pay off and no one will ever break your heart again.

This time it's over I'm keeping my heart, I'm gonna be strong and not fall apart... it'll get better, I'll no longer cry.

to someone who existed in my heart 

Don't hate me. Don't regret me. Don't even forget me.

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