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Kurasa .. 


I know I'm not completely over him
He still crosses my mind several times a day
What should I do ?


honestly.
I'm glad you're happy. I can't say that I'm completely happy for you but I guess that's just a part of life, I'll always have feelings for you but the rest of the world is forcing me to move on from you
but 

how hard I try, the results remain same. I still wanting you



You hurt me more then I deserve, how can you be so cruel? I love you more then you deserve, why am I such a fool?
I have waited for you for 1 years and I will wait for until .. 
i dont know
Even if that means I have to give you up for  my life, I will wait for you. 
I love you that much and nothing will ever change that
I am so
Frustrated because i can not tell if it's real. Mad because I dont know how you feel for me. Upset because we can not make it right. Sad because I want you day and night. Aggravated because you do not understand and you never wondering about me. Disappointed because we can not be together, but still I'll love you

I think I still living in my past
what should I do ?
Should I stepped away from my past ?

Thrus,110413

just writing

This is just for speak up
Just writing what Iam feeling

I know how you feel. When you broke up
Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever.
You don't want to laugh, because you know it's not going to help, but you don't want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse.
You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too. And everyone wonders why if he have hurt you so much, then why do you still love him. That's the confusing part, you don't know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most.
And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you're getting happy again, but you know inside that you're just going into denial.
And after a few more weeks, you're back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes.
You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can't help but to show it again. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn't happened to them And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don't know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this.
Because you've spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection.
After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Everyone says, "It will be okay…” But you know it won't. And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible.
You're still hurt, but you've learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay.
So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them

Its just what i am feeling . . . . 

so sad when I wondering about you

and you still with her 

and you happy with her

and no more space for me